As many have said being a madhatter is horrible on every level but I find that everyone is right on another point as well I get more done when I focus on what I need to fix in me due to my wayward behavior then concentrating on my status as a BS. Now don't get me wrong I do concentrate on both depending on the day, hour, minute, second and I do get work on me done as a BS as well. I have learned as a BS that I cannot control whether or not he will hurt me but I can control whether or not I allow it to continue to hurt me...hmm did that make sense I'm just to tired to proofread. ..
As a WS though I figured out my unhealthy coping mechanisms, I have boundaries that are getting stronger, I no longer stuff my feelings, I am concentrating on making my life prosperous with or without anyone by my side. I am working on every aspect of me and sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is on my back about to crush me and sometimes I can laugh and smile but hey I think I'm making progress.
Not really sure where this was going just felt like sharing.
"There are times when our reality is nothing but pain, and to escape that pain the mind must leave reality behind." Patrick Rothfuss