It's been a month now since DDay and I don't feel like I'm any further ahead. He refuses to talk and when he does he blame ME and my family for A.
He refuses to take any responsibility for his actions or the fallout for me and my family.
I see him as such a morally corrupt man that I am not sure if I can ever love this man again....Do I even want to.
We have been together for 23 years and I think I`m mourning what we had, not what we have.
I have been thinking about how my life would be without him. I told him last night what my plans were if we ended it. He seemed shocked that I had even thought about a plan. I think he thought I would just take it and things would go back to the way they were.
How do you know if it`s worth it. I want to know if my feelings for him will change. I care but I really don`t think that I love him. Is this just a phase.
How can I tell if it`s over (the marriage) I don`t want to continue to waste my time. I already feel like I wasted the entire last year. Do I want to put more time and effort into something that is already broken beyond repair....
How can I tell if my heart will love him again....or do I really deep down want this to end. It would be a financial hardship and I`m not young anymore but I think more and more about him being gone.
To stay and give up MORE of myself or cut my losses and run....so confused