I cheated plain and simple. I never thought i'd ever end up one but I did. Im not proud and certainly am trying to own up to what I did and the harm I've caused. Admittedly Im trying and have tripped multiple times but I can surly say Im trying and it has been a rough path.
I lied, lied, and only to lie again to hind the truth. She finally found out the true story for me to only lie some more, even going as far as creating fake facebook account.
The truth is out there now and sadly I still trip up in times of stress. Therapy has helped. I've multiple times want to call it and spare her the sadness and find someone who deserve her. Im numb. I dont really know what to do. The last piece of information came out and although it was not the way i would have liked come out in a weird way I do feel better knowing EVERYTHING is out.
I just wished I did a better job at getting everything out instead of ripping the band aid slowly. Im numb. she obviously has no need to ever trust me as this very last bit of info I had held onto waiting for better timing. Well there is never better timing except all at once.