I was in a decent mood for the most part today. Spent 1st half of the day with WW, we have been getting closer lately. Spent the rest of the day/night working. When I work is when I seem to feel the most anger and when I get the most triggers. She constructed a rough draft of a time line for me, but there's a lot of information to sort out.
The pain i feel when looking at whats on the paper so far is close to what i felt when reading her letter about all her A's. Thinking about everything so vividly is what makes everyday hell. I know a lot of details, some I almost wish I didn't. Thinking about her and my old 'friend' makes me feel double betrayed, he was one of my best friends at the time. the letter did have more about them I had no clue about. The other, more recent A's hurt more i think, there were 3 om she met online, all older, richer, and she met with 2 of them multiple times over 5 months, so most of my 'mental images' are about them.
Any advice on coping with/getting rid of the mind movies?