Thank you, your replies are really helpful.
He's a real actor, should get an emmy for the use of his emotional control and ability to be a stone wall for massive amounts of time.
Yes, I too wonder if this is a way to alleviate guilt more than anything. It's one of the reasons I suffer with decisions about asking or letting him do house things. I swallow remaing pride for it but think it as helping our daughter also and not just myself.
Seeing the emotion today was interesting and I suspect you are both right. I guess I want so much for him to be really sorry and show me that he is-maybe this is his way, without asking to come back again? Maybe doing these tasks are like a repentance?
He so screwed up our lives that there's not too much on this green earth he could do to even attempt to make it up, if in fact that's his intent with being nice, but yes, I am on guard.
False R taught me even more than the A did and it is the pain from that which I reel from almost four months later.
A sibling or two of his said that he may attempt it again from some of the ways he was talking at times, very mixed up and claiming love for two women-Fatty B and me.
I don't remember all that I posted but I also wonder if its something stemming from filling out the D papers?
I've been given advice that sometimes the actual papers with names in black and white can lift a small cloud in the fog.
Yes, I suspect the allergies too, I used to fight with him to get medicine for them because he gets them really bad every spring. I didn't say a word this time and have terrible trouble with the maternal part of being a wife. That's very hard to shut off.
Another clue when he was fighting with Fatty B was that he would have multiple glasses and switch them. Usually he just has one pair or only the contacts.
My L and counselor said it may be actual glasses for vision and could also be some appearance changing for the A and his double life?
Today he only had one pair, but I had not seen them before.
Thanks, everybody. This is the hardest time in my whole life.
During my bitter and vengful moments, I've found myself wishing he would ask to come back again just so I could say no and he could feel half an ounce of the pain he caused. Then because of who I am I feel terrible for it on top of that.
Has anyone ever felt that too? Does it make me a bad person?