BS 43 (me)
My dday was about 1 year after yours. I went back to IC after a few year break. Maybe I was just ready to move on, but I finally forgave myself for not seeing what was going on. Then, when I took a step back, I noticed his subtle passive aggressive comments. He would subtly attack(blame) me when I needed support. No wonder it took me so long to see that he just can't accept the damage he caused. Nice guy, but broken.
I want better than limbo land, lowering my expectations of the M with every new hurt. Waiting for the next shoe to fall. Rarely feeling happy. Next stop:D.
Dont retreat, reload.
"Pull that knife out of your back - and sever the fuel line to that bus you got thrown under" Bufffalo