I still feel the complusion to try and have a relationship with her, sometimes. I feel bad that she was never taught how to behave with respect. I feel bad that she lost her mother 4 years ago. She's really lost, and possibly BPD II.
She sent DD3 some beautiful, thoughtful birthday gifts. This is all we have heard from her all year, apart 2 angry, slanderous emails which is her MO. (Crazz's childhood dog passed and when he contacted her to ask why nobody told him she used the deliberate opening to explain why she loves and missed him, and I sucked, and therefore he sucked by proxy.)
So WHY, in the name of all that is holy, and I having such difficulty restraining myself from texting her pictures of DD3 enjoying her presents? I so desperately want her to see that I'm not the one to blame for her unhappiness, that she's using a lovely person as a scapegoat for all her shit with her brother and family.
I want things to be good. I want her to feel safe with me. I want her to have a relationship with her niece. I have this stupid hope that if I keep reaching out someday she'll see me for the person I am, not the devil her father has indoctrinated her to believe I am.
But she's so MEAN and AWFUL to me!!! What the heck is my issue?!!?
Need help not returning a kind gesture with the kindness bursting to come out. It just feels so foreign.
Talk me down, plz.
[This message edited by Jrazz at 2:06 PM, April 23rd (Tuesday)]
Send her a nice note on behalf of Baby Jrazz thanking her for the gifts and include a couple of the photos.
ETA: Say something very simple like "Thought you'd like to see Baby Jrazz enjoying her gifts. Thank you so much."
It's the Olive Branch - Ball's In Her Court jesture that costs you little to nothing.
[This message edited by ajsmom at 2:10 PM, April 23rd (Tuesday)]
"Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now - always." - Albert Schweitzer
Me: BW - Him: 200+ # tumor removed 7/09
DS - 31 - Yikes!
I just can't stand this compulsion to "fix" things. It's tied in with needing people to love me, and while I can see it from the outside, I hate having these feeling take over.
She isn't yours to "fix" - but if she acknowledges your child, it's up to you to thank her.
She has issues. TONS of issues if she can't even think for herself.
Can LittleRazz write her letters yet? As soon as my two could write their letters I had them writing their own thank you cards.
Keep it simple:
Thank you for my presents
Include some pictures of her with her presents.
I wrote out the card for my kids then they would copy it over to the thank you card. Just a thought
PS. Why did I read your husband's screenname as Crazy? Sorry.
Just brush off that silly hope for a Kumbayah sing-along with SIL and you'll be fine.
(ie - I'm controlling FWH's drinking because I'm a manipulative bitch. A) I'm not controlling nothin' - he makes his own choices there. B) They're all raging substance abusers.. you know, the type that suspects you if you're not matching them shot for shot?)
[This message edited by Jrazz at 2:39 PM, April 23rd (Tuesday)]
She received gifts from her Auntie and loves them.
That's all the message has to be.
You're kind of mountaining a molehill here...
Vrazz is as smart as a whip and she will come to the same conclusion that you have if and when the time comes. Don't sweat this; send the short and sweet version and be done with it.
That's me! Molehill Mountaineer extraordinaire.
Thanks for the hope everyone. SadinAZ, I'm going to take a deep breath and trust that V is a smart little cookie. Thanks for the reminder.
Remember that sister of mine whom I un-friended and blocked from FB a few weeks back?
Well, birthday season has started for her four kids. Had one in March, another one last week in April then will have one in June and the last will be in August.
She's diabolically batshit crazy but that didn't (and won't) stop me from acknowledging her kid's birthdays. I've sent two gifts out and have gotten one thank you back. First kid who didn't thank me is off the list for next year cuz that's the boundary I've chosen to have. We'll see about the last two, but I'm not relenting.
I don't give a rat's ass what she thinks of me, but I will ALWAYS acknowledge her kids because they don't deserve to be put in the middle of an adult pissing match.
[This message edited by ajsmom at 3:03 PM, April 23rd (Tuesday)]
Believe me, even at that early age, he knew she was batshit crazy.
100% this ^^^. Kids are good at picking up who is safe and who isn't, as well as figuring out when someone says something just b/c they don't like someone else. Vrazz is a smart cookie, she'll know that they're blowing smoke, because she knows her mommy is great and loves her