These are the words my WH says to me whenever we get into a heated discussion about the A and our current status. I have been to an attorney and done my research, but have yet to file. My WH was devastated when he found out about the attorney.
My mind is all over the place right now and I don't really know what I'm trying to say or ask. I guess it's just that neither of us wants a divorce. He tells me sometimes he hates himself for missing me and I feel the same way. Why would I ever miss someone who had an A? It doesn't make sense. But I know it's human nature/emotions and it doesn't always make sense.
Neither of us has the money for a D, however my parents are offered to pay for the whole thing. All I have to do is pull the plug...but I can't get myself to do it. Why? I have asked him on numerous occasions if he is trying to get me to leave him (perhaps he doesn't want to feel like the bad guy). He always says No. I have flat out said that all he needs to do is say the word and I will file. He won't say it.
I love him and I cannot admit that to most people IRL because it makes me feel like the world's biggest fool. What the F is wrong with me?