Yes, I readily acknowledge that I am a fool, but not completely. Even though POS has shown no remorse or willingness to R, I sent him a letter along with other mail of his telling him how I feel from my heart; the utter anguish that I am living with. I even sent some of the articles from the the Healing Library to try to get him to understand just how much damage he has inflicted. In a nutshell, even though I sent separation agreement papers previously, this letter opens a very small crack in the door to see if he will walk through it. I am cautiously optimistic, but not really hopeful. I am still pursuing legal steps and spent time after mailing the letter making copies of documentation for attorney. So as I said, I am not a complete fool. I just have so much emotional investment with this ass clown that I want to say I have tried absolutely everything before I call it quits after almost 30 years together. Because he is out of state, he won't get it until next week. Until then, the waiting is going to be absolutely horrific. One can only hope for a last minute miracle...
Call me a fool... 
XPOS - too many OW/OCs over 20+yrs
Kids - DDs 23,18 -DS20 Deceased
M Dissolved 2013
This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man ~ Shakespeare, Hamlet
