WH was about 45 min away all last week for training for work. He stayed in a hotel. It was a rough week but I powered through.
We have been living apart but trying to reconcile. I started forcing down some walls a week or so ago. Just realized I had to give him more and stop protecting as much of me if I want to give us every chance of success.
More exciting is that I've been looking for a house to buy. I will buy it but he hope is of course to live there together. I found one last week I loved and put an offer in. After almost a week of going back and forth with the seller and them missing deadlines I got the signed counted offer late Thursday. I am officially under contract. It's a short sale, so on to bank approval.
I was over the moon excited. Called my H 4 times and texted and ten said screw it I'm driving down there! He is going to be the first person that knows and I am too excited not to share.
Sad that it occurred on the way there that he might not be answering because he might be with someone. But I pushed that fear down. I showed up and he had just gotten back to the room from eating and having drinks with a guy who he was training with. He was so excited and happy , laughing at how cute he thought I was for being so exited. It was the guy I married.
Ironically I had spent the night with him the night before and worn an outfit I hadn't worn since last year. It was what i wore the night before I caught him with OW. it put a smile on my face to realize I'd just wiped that terrible memory with a wonderful memory to associate from now on.
So a silly little thing, taking back an outfit (which I love) and a huge thing...my future home and future is in my hands. I'm so excited and praying things go smoothly with the bank from here 
