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VioletPush posted 4/28/2013 19:44 PM

Well.... I met a guy and we clicked - like clicked in that way that's scary. It was a fabulous whirlwind, it all went so fast. I knew I was throwing caution to the wind and that this would either end fabulously or tragically. We had so much in common, we had so much fun, and we saw each other a LOT - like we couldn't get enough. He's a super great guy...

But he's a super great guy who told me this weekend that he's not ready for a serious relationship right now. (I knew he ended his last relationship in October, and I WAS a bit worried that maybe that wasn't enough time for him...) Sigh.... I got the whole "you're so great, I wish I would have met you later.... Maybe in the future we can try this again.... " blah, blah, blah

I know that sounds like typical guy crap stuff to say when you're trying to "break up" with someone... I would like to believe its true though. I think everything just went so fast and he sort of freaked out. But he was really taking the lead in the fast lane... It's not like I pushed him there.

I was really blindsided by this, so it's definitely been a big bummer of a weekend. This is the first guy I've met in the 2 years since DDay that I was excited about - and I was really excited about him.

Well.... At least I took a chance, right? And it's better to find out now before more serious feelings became involved... Still feels crappy though :(

InnerLight posted 4/28/2013 19:58 PM

So sorry for this new pain. Take really good care of yourself, it can be like ending a drug to end a romance, especially the kind where you saw eachother ALOT. Remember NC is your friend in such situations, no matter how hard the those withdrawal symptoms kick you in the but.

VioletPush posted 4/29/2013 01:13 AM

Thanks Innerlight, I appreciate the kind words :)

Diva0702 posted 4/29/2013 01:44 AM

You had a wonderful time sharing yourself with someone you found exciting after such a deep psychological trauma. You should congratulate yourself heartily that you were ABLE to do this and take pleasure in the company of someone who found yours exhilarating. That in itself is quite an accomplishment.

As difficult as it is to let that go now, know in your heart that you are capable of giving again. That is truly wonderful!

It might have been a gentle way that this man felt he had to let you down, but he DID do it in a kind and thoughtful way, to you in person, and that speaks volumes. Your self esteeem should remain firmly intact.

I have a feeling that you have great things to look forward to sweet.

Lots of luck!

VioletPush posted 4/30/2013 08:40 AM

Diva - thanks!! I really have been trying to tell myself that same sentiment. I knew I was making myself vulnerable, and that could lead to getting hurt... But that's the chance you have to take, right?

Ugh, those withdrawals are hitting hard today!

stupidstupidme posted 4/30/2013 08:51 AM

Why does that seem like such a typical pattern with men?(sorry about the generalization, guys)

It seems they are the ones not ready for the serious relationship when the 2-3 month mark hits, yet when you look back, they are the ones that pushed it along... seems so common.

I'm sorry you are hurting.

VioletPush posted 4/30/2013 09:09 AM

SSM - have you gotten that a lot? I hope that's not a pattern for me!

I keep having this nagging thought - even if you were a guy who was thinking that you weren't ready for a serious relationship, if you met the right person would you be magically ready?

I guess I was hoping to be that right person, and it feels sort of crappy to think I'm not.

Or maybe the magically being ready thing is total fantasy...

In the romantic comedy version of this story we'd cross paths again in 6 months and he'd realize I was the one he wanted all along! Haha.... Doesn't everyone think of their lives as a romantic comedy??? :)

stupidstupidme posted 4/30/2013 09:22 AM

Not me personally, but between friends and here - I seem to see that dynamic play out a lot.

I guess I was hoping to be that right person, and it feels sort of crappy to think I'm not.

I can totally relate to this. I end up hurt quite a bit, because as my father puts it, I always have my "rose colored glasses" on.

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