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Chefj9 (original poster member #38604) posted at 10:57 PM on Monday, April 29th, 2013
Some days I feel so hopeful WH is doing everything I ask and working so hard. I'll go a day or two and feel optimistic, loved, and I feel like my best friend is back. The next day, I'll trigger and every bit of doubt returns. The mind movies come back and my mood spirals downward. I get angry and start to shut down.
Last Thursday was horrid. The bunny boiler reared her ugly head, stressed everyone out completely. My husband has a condition called cataplexy. He literally goes rigid, catatonic etc. this latest episode with the OW has pushed him into a 3 day episode. So much so that he's cancelled all work travel and Docs are changing his meds. He can't drive or travel for at least 7 days.
Today is our wedding anniversary. There will be no celebrating. I just feel sad. Now I get to go home and take care of him when he's supposed to be taking care of me.
ME - BS 50, Him - WS 46 trying to "R"
4 DD's - blended 26,16, 15 and 13
Multi DDays the grand finale 5/13/2013
From here on out, I am only interested in what is real. Real people, real feelings, that's it, that's all I'm intere
Hurt2Deeply ( member #38317) posted at 11:40 PM on Monday, April 29th, 2013
I am so sorry you have been hurt this way. Additionally it must be awful to have to take care of him when you are hurting so badly. I hope you can get some relief soon.
H2D
Me BS 57
Him FWH 60
M 35 years
3 Adult kids
R
Skan ( member #35812) posted at 12:50 AM on Tuesday, April 30th, 2013
Gods below, I am so sorry. Have you looked at pursuing an RO with this bitch? Given your WHs medical condition and reaction, I would hope that the court system would come through for you.
Yeah, it blows that at a time when he should be catering to your every want and need, you have to take care of him because of HIS actions. I'm so sorry.
Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.
D-Day, June 10, 2012
Stangfreak ( member #35157) posted at 1:23 AM on Tuesday, April 30th, 2013
((((((((((Chef)))))))))). So sorry dearie. Hope everything gets stable for you. I hear counseling can work wonders.
"Some glad morning when this life is o'er, I'll fly away.
To a home on God's celestial shore, I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, oh glory, I'll fly away (IN THE MORNING!)
When I die, hallelujah by and by, I'll fly away!"
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