Some days I feel so hopeful WH is doing everything I ask and working so hard. I'll go a day or two and feel optimistic, loved, and I feel like my best friend is back. The next day, I'll trigger and every bit of doubt returns. The mind movies come back and my mood spirals downward. I get angry and start to shut down.
Last Thursday was horrid. The bunny boiler reared her ugly head, stressed everyone out completely. My husband has a condition called cataplexy. He literally goes rigid, catatonic etc. this latest episode with the OW has pushed him into a 3 day episode. So much so that he's cancelled all work travel and Docs are changing his meds. He can't drive or travel for at least 7 days.
Today is our wedding anniversary. There will be no celebrating. I just feel sad. Now I get to go home and take care of him when he's supposed to be taking care of me.
