Will you ever learn? Well Jack, that's up to you.
Plenty of us have continued lying to our BSs and have broken NC after d-day. Some of us decided to get off the pity pot and start self reflecting. The lucky ones were able to get the gift of R from their BSs.
The ones who continued lying, trickle truthing, didn't do the self reflection, learning from their shitty ways, didn't get to R.
Which one will you be?
Is there anything else you need to tell your BW?
What work are you doing to change? What are you doing to figure out why you're continuing to make the wrong choices?