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lingering effects of situational depression?

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 survivor_kh (original poster member #33738) posted at 8:46 PM on Friday, May 3rd, 2013

I havent felt those intense feelings of severe depression for almost a year now, but Im trying to figure out how to manage some of the lingering effects. I would like to come up with some sort of plan of action to help with these issues:

1. fatigue. I struggle to wake up every morning and it takes most of the morning for my groginess to dissipate.

2. lack of focus. I cant stay task-oriented and I cant complete tasks regurlary or in a timely manner.

3. memory loss. I cant remember details of stories, conversations, movies, books, lectures, etc, and I forget about appoinments frequently.

4. lack of comprehension. sometimes I read a paragraph several times before I figure out what it is saying. sometimes I need to be given direction multiple times. sometimes I am in the middle of doing a project for work, and I suddenly stop and feel completely lost.

5. irritability. pretty much everyone annoys me. I feel myself on the verge of a meltdown over things like dishes and property taxes.

6. emotional shut downs. if something makes me feel uncomfortable or triggers, I feel myself become quiet, numb and expressionless. I cant console others.I can only help by physically helping others or by very matter of factly giving advice. showing emotions sometimes makes me feel uncomfortable. I also cant cry when I feel like I need .

7. I forgot what 7 was because I lost track of I was thinking.

8. inconsistent feelings. one day I feel great, im doing good things, I like being single. next day ughhhh I kind of suck at Independence. its hard to stay mmotivated when I have a bad day. it a few days to bounce back from it.

in addition, I would like to add that I work two jobs, I will be going school part time in the fall, I exercise when I can at least once or twice a week, im taking some vitamins to keep my energy level boosted, I have been getting sick a lot this past year.mostly sinus related problems or stomach pain. I need some help with stress management, and im still seeing my IC, although I took a break for about a month when i was short on time and money. my over all financial situation is improving but I wish it were better.

Anyone have similar experiences?

any and advice and comments are welcome here.

[This message edited by survivor_kh at 2:49 PM, May 3rd (Friday)]

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Newlease ( member #7767) posted at 8:51 PM on Friday, May 3rd, 2013

A lot of those symptoms sound like PTSD to me. I dealt with all that for a few years after my D.

What helped me was continued therapy (tell your IC all of the things you have outlined here), AD medication, and exercise. My therapist used EMDR and it was very beneficial to me.

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lieshurt ( member #14003) posted at 8:56 PM on Friday, May 3rd, 2013

A lot of those symptoms sound like PTSD to me.

I have all of the same symptoms you've listed and I was diagnosed with PTSD yesterday. I've started meds today and will be attending IC. It's been a long time coming for me.

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 survivor_kh (original poster member #33738) posted at 5:22 AM on Saturday, May 4th, 2013

that actually makes a lot of sense. My IC mentioned it to me before as a possibility, but we never revisited it. I've been doing EMDR for a while, and I do very well with it.

I guess I know what to bring up next week. oh I feel so relieved now.

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tabitha95 ( member #22033) posted at 5:33 AM on Saturday, May 4th, 2013

This is me. I've been this way so long, seeing it in a list makes me realize that I need to do something.

I do think I suffered PTSD. I did a lot of research on infidelity related PTSD after my first dday and I had so many symptoms. Then I got a second dday, which came with gaslighting for nearly a year.

I am really interested in this thread.

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D-Day#2: June 3, 2011 (same MOW) Separation: June 3, 2011
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Bluebird26 ( member #36445) posted at 10:31 AM on Saturday, May 4th, 2013

Sounds like me on any given day too....

You're not alone. Sigh....

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jjct ( member #17484) posted at 11:20 AM on Saturday, May 4th, 2013

Here are a few helpful ideas:

http://www.survivinginfidelity.com/forums.asp?tid=493751&HL=17484

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risingfromashes ( member #3903) posted at 12:42 PM on Saturday, May 4th, 2013

I am not sure how old you are but these symptoms are also associated with menopause.

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 survivor_kh (original poster member #33738) posted at 11:10 PM on Tuesday, May 7th, 2013

I'm 28. My friends are constantly making comments about my emotional shut downs, and 1 of them completely attacked me for "not caring" when she was upset and crying.

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homewrecked2011 ( member #34678) posted at 11:50 PM on Tuesday, May 7th, 2013

Our D days were about the same time, I think this all has to do with everything settling down and reality starting to set in about what happened.

I cannot really remember much over the last year and 1/2. I still get all triggered by C&W music bc thats what they like -- ha I had to switch to Christian music for now bc I know they don't listen to that! LOL

I am hugely forgetful, zone often, sometimes take 2 baths to settle down at night after hot water reheats, and I always wake up first thing with "them" on my mind.

You asked for thoughts and here are mine:

When I checked into outpatient at a mental health place, they said that our brains had been rewired by the trama and it was going to take WORK to rewire and get back to normalacy.

The main thing that helps me is leaving this city any time I can. One week out of state staying with friends was AWESOME. I slept and slept and slept and ate at Chilis every night. It was really great to get a change of scenery. Can you even to go another city even an hour away and immerse yourself there as if you never met your WH? Just the driving on strange streets, talking to friends I've had for years, them laughing about good times we've had, sleeping for hours, etc all really helped me. My best friend and I went to the beach for the weekend (cheap now) and stayed in the room basically the whole time. I took HOT HOT HOT showers, we sat up at night on the balcony laughing and I slept in every day. She is a great friend and her husband was so nice to send her to cheer me up!

Sometimes He calms the storm. Sometimes He lets the storm rage, but calms His child. Dday 12/19/11I went to an attorney and had him served. Shocked the hell out of him, with D papers, I'm proud to say!D final10/30/2012Me-55

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 survivor_kh (original poster member #33738) posted at 9:09 PM on Wednesday, May 8th, 2013

When I checked into outpatient at a mental health place, they said that our brains had been rewired by the trama and it was going to take WORK to rewire and get back to normalacy.

My IC said something similar to me. She treated for PTSD once before when we talked about my father's death, so I know what kind of work I'm in for. Right now, I feel more numb than I felt during that period.

I feel like I am taking on a lot right now with 2 jobs, taking care of a house and adding school to that in the fall. In my mind, I am preparing myself for a future where I don't have to depend on anyone for aything if I don't want to. That may sound extreme, but I can't help it.

[This message edited by survivor_kh at 3:10 PM, May 8th (Wednesday)]

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