I will tell you what will get you up off the ground everytime and it did the very same for me the kids.
I have told the closest people to me that if I would not have had kids (and believe me my own sibling I love dearly but they have their own life's now)I am not sure I would have gotten back up because at first the only time I could breathe was when I could sleep from being totally exhausted because then my brain would not think. When I would wake I would cry instantly cause my brain would turn on again and all the thoughts would flood into my head again. The brain is a very powerful and terrible thing at times.
But I would think about my children and that is what made me take and put one foot out of the bed onto the floor.
My kids saved my life I truly believe that cause a few times I wanted to sleep and not wake up.
Once my son had slipped into bed with me one night probably scared and I woke in the dark to hear a light snore and thought immediately OMG he's here it's not true I was having a nightmare and I instantly sat up and touched my son and when I saw it was him I actually cried because the nightmare was true and I was living it.
Your kids will save you and pick you up everytime that's probably why god sent them to me he knew I was not strong enough to make it on my own. I believe that now cause we went thru 6 years of extreme infertility treatments to have our twins.
When do the bad days stop?? My WS has been gone for almost 3 years now and I never see him it is too hard and just tonight I thought I am never gonna get over this after seeing a stupid commercial about love necklaces with a key necklace in it the same sort of stupid necklace he had hanging in his truck swinging in my face and our kids faces with some stupid story he told me at the time and now she has that stupid necklace around her neck.
The key to her heart if she even has one!
On this site several times I have read it takes 1/2 of the time you were together with your WS to get over all the pain well crap that means I have 8 more years to go.
Good Luck to you