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tryingagain74 posted 5/6/2013 11:55 AM

When I signed, I said to my L, "There ends 17 years of my life!" It's very odd. I thought that some wave of emotion would come over me. Shouldn't I feel sad about this? Instead, I drove through the beautiful sunshine, stopped at a local bookstore, and bought myself a few books to read for fun. I don't feel sad... just indifferent. It was like I was signing for a package or signing a permission slip for a field trip.

I'm glad to be moving on. I'm glad to be breaking another tie to STBX. It just seems surreal that I spent almost half my life with him, and that life now seems like it belonged to somebody else. All that time, and I'm totally "meh" about the (rather anticlimactic) ending. I guess my indifference to all that history is a sadness in and of itself.

MovingUpward posted 5/6/2013 12:27 PM

I remember feeling the same way. The bright news is that your life is just beginning. Move forward each and every day.

torn2bits posted 5/6/2013 12:36 PM

Be good to yourself and good for you its over.

2kidsandadog posted 5/6/2013 13:20 PM

I was exactly the same way on the day of my divorce. I was sort of numb and thought "wow, it took months to plan, lots of money and stress, and bam in 15 minutes, 23 years of marriage over"!!!

I was actually worried that I wasn't reacting normally because I spent a total of 30 years with my ex so we had a lot of firsts beginning in teenager years to mid-life.

I'm glad to hear that someone else felt like I did. Yeah, the indifference to all that history is a sadness all of it's own. To me, it's indicative of all the hurt that continued to roll over and over and over and over till one felt stomped to death, and love could no more resume. Only hatred overcame me the last year and a half.

Good luck on your new beginnings. I couldn't be happier with mine!!!!

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