As I was logging onto SI today I was attracted to a subject heading in the RECONCILIATION forum. I started looking through some of the posts in that section and alot of them resonated with me.
I hadn't even considered posting there as it hadn't occured to me that maybe I'm in Reconciliation right now. I guess, more than anything, I identify myself as a WW/WS and that's the label I've given myself and the badge I wear hence feeling comfortable posting in Wayward Side.
This is further confounded by still having days of feeling low and triggering. Reminders of AP seem to be everywhere, or is it just that I'm feeling low and vulnerable so I'm noticing them more?
Anyone know what I'm talking about? Have you been here?
I still don't have "indifferent" feelings towards xAP. When will they come????
I guess I am in R, but because it's so hard and blurry, confusing and anxiety provoking, I don't seem to recognise that my H and I HAVE started a journey of R.. albeit in a very very early stage.. nonetheless, it's started.