BS here -
I can relate in certain ways. I was a regular smoker for 7-8 years, and quit cold-turkey 10 years ago. About two months ago (1 month after DDay), a good friend of mine offered me a drag of her cig, and I said why the hell not?Well, long short, I'm back to smoking now.
I view it this way - if this is the worst thing I do in the aftermath of discovering my WW's A's, which span almost our entire marriage, then I am just fine with that. A friend of mine was encouraging by saying, "if I were you, I'd be doing hardcore drugs to deal with all this shit!" So, I dont mind smoking for awhile. After all, it's a great distraction, and also, some of my best thinking and Ah ha! Moments tend to occur when I step out for a smoke alone. My WW doesnt mind either. She kind of digs it, too. After all, this was a huge part of my life, the 'real me' right up until 6 months before I met her.
Hope that helps!