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libertyrocks posted 5/10/2013 12:16 PM

I have a 3 hour roundtrip commute to and from work, M-F, so I have a lot of time to think, alone. I'm part time trucker lady! jk. lol.

I can't help but to feel so bitter lately. I feel smug and saddened. It's horrible. I'm usually a pretty happy and chipper person. I feel like I have the letter A scarred on my face. I'm burning with shame and I didn't even do anything. I'm so embarassed. I've lost friends and family because of H's PA's.

I try to think of happy things, but they fade away and all I'm left with are ashes of what used to be. I guess I could be thankful we're all alive and happy and that I'm lucky I don't have to walk with my kids and take the bus...

It just sucks to be here. Sorry, little rant for the day.

Skan posted 5/10/2013 15:29 PM

What a monster commute! It's got to be difficult, all of that time to think. Maybe you can try to get some books on CDs to listen to, to help for at least some of the drive? (((hugs)))

BrokenPsyche posted 5/10/2013 16:53 PM

I'm a big fan of introspection, but when it turns to rumination--put a fork in me and call me done.

I love Skan's idea of books on cd. Something to distract you during your commute might help. A lot of libraries these days loan them out so you don't even have to lay out the money for the books on cd.

libertyrocks posted 5/13/2013 10:44 AM

Good idea! Thanks. Gonna check libraries in my area right now.