I figured since I came out of lurkdom on the tattoo thread I would post and participate...
Next week is my husband and my 17th anniversary. Last year he was wrapped up in his online pursuits and more or less ruined the day for me. It was really important to me because it was exactly half my life with him. I am worried that I will have a melt down next Friday and I would like to reclaim that day.
He has been amazing since DDay last year and is becoming the person I wish he was years ago. I'm struggling with being comfortable with this person in front of me because I'm always waiting for things to fall apart. I have a feeling its going to take time which has become such a 4 letter word to me! I want to love this person and I hope its sincere there is always a "but" involved. My gut says he's being honest and transparent, however, (there's that but again!) I don't want to be vulnerable and go through anything resembling that level of pain again.
Thanks to whoever reads this-I am usually just a reader and this site has really helped keep me sane since my world imploded.