At the beginning of r, I really felt close to Wh. He was getting sober, confessed tons of stuff, and was trying so hard
Now we live together, and are fully R.
He has a tough job, and I stay at home with the kids. Plus, he is bipolar I, so he needs decompression time (ie, go up to the bedroom & read sleep watch TV for hours)
Yesterday I was so tired. And he just went straight to bed at 6 when he got home.. Didn't eat dinner with us. Got up at 830 pm, and by then I'm dragging.
Why do I stay? I like being a sahm, I like the fact that by R with him, I won't miss a holiday or weekend or birthday ever again. We were in divorce court for a year before R and it was hell.
We don't even sleep in the same bed, at the end of the day, I just want ME time so I fall asleep alone on the couch reading or watching TV.