Wanting, I am lying in bed after midnight (Happy Mother's Day to us) and I just sent off an email to my H who is sleeping beside me.
I have sent him many emails, some very long letters telling him how I feel. My usual theme is that we don't talk enough. We do talk about everyday things. We eat meals together, drive places together, sometimes we'll go shopping together or walk our dog. We even have weekly dinners out together and of course we talk. But rarely will he ever bring up anything relating to feelings or emotions.
Our dday was almost 18 months ago. We talked quite a bit in the beginning and it brought us closer but now I am afraid things are slipping back into a routine where we don't make the time to check in with each other as to what we are feeling.
Anyway, in my email,,I told him that I fear this lack of connection. I felt sad that I had to express myself in an email because he is so tired that he can't stay awake to spend some alone time with me. I said that when we are together but not communicating, is when I feel at my loneliest.
So I can really relate to what you are saying.