It's a wedding anniversary today. We got married on mother's day and on this date 21 years ago. I had hoped to be a mother but it was not to be. Feeling a bit more down and affected by this because I have a cold too so I feel kind of pathetic.
Had lunch on Friday with an old friend of us as a couple I hadn't seen since before the debacle, over 5 years. We had fallen out of touch. I shared the story and teared up. It's different when you share with people who knew you as a couple. This guy made our wedding cake for us way back when.
A few days ago I dreamed that I invited my X on the dance floor. It was evening and outdoors and there were twinkly lights and other people around. We danced with joy and it was fun. But then we lost our footing and fell and I hurt myself. Not too hard to see the symbolism in that dream!