I am so sorry you are both having such a difficult day.
I know I have been AWOL . We have been pushing through a big milestone and I needed space from SI to do that.
Bad choice is bang on. Only time will show where Lost is just now. And you need to focus on being authentic. Offering kindness and love. And looking after your babies.
I understand and read the dissapiontment in your post. This suggests some of your actions may still have been focused on expectations for an outcome. A favourable one.
You must focus on being all you can be. Not just on what you think you should be.
I think of yoou both so often. I wish I was better equipped to help you both. Best wishes to your little family. Hold on Sam to your babies and your love for your wife, even if for her well being she needs a path seperate to you for now. Meg.