This Topic is Archived
meplustwo (original poster member #39082) posted at 12:25 AM on Tuesday, May 14th, 2013
So, we are reconciling. Just beginning so its slow goin'. Today I just feel like I don't know if I really want to spend the rest of my life with him. He is depressed. He suffers from migraines and is incapacitated. I keep having thoughts of them together and his emails telling her the things I would love to hear from him like "you looked so hot today" and "I'm so jealous that other people get to see you all day."
I love him. I want an intact family. I think he can be a great husband. I just want to feel wanted, loved, adored and right now, I don't.
Anyone else reconciling and having days where they wonder if all this is worth it?
Me(34) - BS
Him(35) - WH
Married: 9 years
Two Kids: 4 and 6
D-Day #1: 7/12, D-Day #2: 4/24/13
Affair: EA to PA with coworker
Status of A: Says he broke it off after I went to her house and confronted both of them
catlover50 ( member #37154) posted at 3:02 AM on Tuesday, May 14th, 2013
Yep, completely normal. They don't call it a roller coaster for nothing!
Hang in there! Hugs!!
Dday -9/23/2012
Reconciled
Tripletrouble ( member #39169) posted at 3:15 AM on Tuesday, May 14th, 2013
Yes! One day will be great and the next day I never want to see him again.
40 somethings - me BW after 20 years
D Day April 2013
Divorced November 2013
Happily remarried 2018
Time is a great healer but a terrible beautician.
gonogo1 ( member #25518) posted at 5:15 AM on Tuesday, May 14th, 2013
I am raising my hand . One day I love him and in a matter of hours I want to never see his face again . Go figure
Copied from HUFI-PUFI
Don’t listen to your head, it’s easily confused. Don’t listen to your heart, its fickle. Listen to your soul, God doesn't steer you wrong.
betraydtwice ( member #38921) posted at 5:55 AM on Thursday, May 30th, 2013
So true. Everyday is different. Today I'm in the why bother phase. Wondering if I am wasting my time and if I love him at all anymore. Don't know....wish it was clearer
TrustGone ( member #36654) posted at 6:16 AM on Thursday, May 30th, 2013
Yes. We all feel like that at times. It is completely normal to feel this way. Hang in there, tomorrow is a new day and who knows where you will be then. Sorry, I know it sucks.
XWH#2-No longer my monkey Divorced 8/15, Now married to a wonderful man.
"A person is either an asset or a lesson"
"Changing who you are with does not change who you are"
sodamnlost ( member #37190) posted at 7:07 AM on Thursday, May 30th, 2013
I wonder it pretty much every day :-(
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
This Topic is Archived
