Tough2Know}}}}} - Those are side bro hugs man. I'm sorry you find yourself in this shitty mess and on the only website you thought you'd never have to join. Believe me I feel your pain brother as many of us here did and still do. While this may sound like an oxymoron, I'm glad you're here because *this* is where you'll get the support needed to get though this. And BTW, before I go on here just let me say that as bad as it seems now... You.Will.Get.Through.This
OK, first and foremost you need to understand brother that NONE of this is your fault. Let me repeat that so it sinks in real deep... None.Of.This.Was.Any.Of.Your.Fault! WS's are a bat-shit crazy bunch and will try to do whatever they can to blame-shift, rug-sweep and compartmentalize their A's. It's ALL 100% bullshit in the beginning so just keep remembering the most important BS motto stated twice above.
Second, you absolutely need to concentrate on just *YOU* now. I know this sounds harsh and also hard to do. I'm glad you found the 180 and *YES* you do need to begin to implement it NOW! Do not wait in the hope that your WW will magically have an epiphany and all of a sudden come back to her senses and back to you. Sorry for the bad news dude, but it just doesn't work that way in infidelity.
Understand completely that you have no control over her and that she will *NOT* stop the affair until her (what we term here) fantasy bubble bursts and comes crashing down around her. The only way that will happen is when *SHE* decides to end the A. While she is in that bubble, she's like a crack addict. Even if she isn't having sex with the OM now (BTW, total bullshit IMO), she is still that same crack addict, only now someone is putting the pipe up to her lips and pulling it away before she can take a great big ole hit off it. So run the 180 bro and run it to the letter. BTW, the 180 is not meant to bring your WW back to her senses and it will not stop the A. It is meant for *You* so you can begin the process of detaching from her and this shitty mess she brought down on your marriage. You need to do that detaching T2K so you can regain control of your *Own* life and decide to move on *with* or *without* her. All this probably sounds hardline to you right now but all it really means is that from now on *YOU* are deciding what happens with *Your* life not her. The 180 just helps you take back control of your own life.
Third, Go see an attorney a.s.a.p! Understand that you are not doing this to immediately divorce your WW. Again, you are doing it so you'll know what your options are for you and your son *should you need go that route down the road. And look T2K, I also know this one sounds hard, but you must do it. Why? Because aside from the reasons above, your WW is what we call here a "Cake Eater". In essence all that means is that she wants her cake... (Your home, your food, your money), and also to eat that cake too... (fuck her scuzzy OM and take him to the airport when needed etc...). See the L bro and just find out what your options are. BTW, there is reasoning that has been put out here on SI many times that promotes telling your WW that you've contacted an L. I tend to disagree with that line of thinking in the very beginning because 99.999% of WS's *are* still in their fantasy bubble and are so fucked up mentally that they just may throw everything under the bus because they think their OP's grass is greener. So IMO, see the L but hold off for now telling WW about it.
Forth, Since your WW refuses to end her A and go NC with her AP, it's time to expose WW's & OM's A to who ever you think needs to hear about it. You've already told her parents and God bless them for acting in a responsible manner after you did. However, have you told any one where she works? Anyone in your church? Anyone else who may shed light on her bad behavior? Understand that I normally wouldn't advise a BS to do this. However, in your case I think it's not only needed but totally justified. This is not your burden to bare alone T2K. *YOU* did nothing wrong and *YOU* are the one who has had his life turned upside down. Go to the personnel office where she works and tell them what is going on. Most companies frown heavily on inter office romances, especially when it involves infidelity. You may be asking now... "but how can I do this? Won't they both lose there jobs?" Here's the short answer to that... So.Fucking.What! Really bro, is the money WW's making more important than the fact that she's currently shoving a giant "go fuck yourself" bone up your ass? She's blatant about it T2K and you have to make a hard choice to either just accept it, or stop being her doormat and take some positive action to bring the A to a screeching halt.
Look my friend, A's thrive in the deep dark of secrecy... and they wither and die in the light of day. Remove that cloak and out her to her bosses and if not them, to the personnel department were she works. If not there than your church or who ever else you think will help bring their A out in the open. Until she is out of the A... AND is NC with her AP, you have a less than zero chance of saving your M (if that is what you want to do).
Fifth, DO NOT ask WW to go to MC (marriage counseling) with you right now. The hard fact is that it will never work while she is still in the A and you may as well just flush the money it will cost down the drain. Instead, use that money to get yourself into IC (Individual counseling) a.s.a.p. Remember, you can't control WW and make her end the A and that's not why you should go to IC. This therapy is for *you* only to help you cope with what is going on now in your life. Many of us have been in IC and between that and this site it offered us a lifeline in the early days.
That's enough for now as you already have a pretty full plate my friend. Just remember to come back here often and keep reading/posting. BTW, you can't *Ever* post to much here so let it all out bro, that's what we're here for. Hang in there and stay strong T2K! You can and will get though this!
PEACE
[This message edited by PanicAttack53 at 1:32 AM, May 15th (Wednesday)]