Thank you. It feels nice to finally have him here now.
I am slowly coming to terms with things now. I don't think I have PPD, I think you are right and maybe it's just the baby blues. I am not saying that it is a bad thing to be on medication. I just don't want to have to rely on any
medication in order to feel normal. You are right though, I do owe it to myself to feel the best I can. I am working on that now. I am doing what I can now to make myself feel healthy again.
As for nursing, I am not giving up. I don't want to feel like I am giving up on our son. I am going to continue to breastfeed him and just supplement formula if he is still hungry afterwards. I think a problem is that I might not be producing enough milk to fill him up. So we are doing both now.
Thank you for the concern.
I understand what you meant about breastfeeding. It is hard to nurse but I am slowly figuring out what is best for our son. It was just so disheartening when my doctor told me to stop breastfeeding. This is something that I really have my heart set on and it's what's best for my son. I was never able to breastfeed with our daughter so being able to do this for our son is such a joy.
It's nice when you have that encouragement behind you. I am hoping that with us supplementing now, he will start to gain weight more. He has gained a little bit since Monday which has put me a little at ease. Now he just needs to keep gaining.
One thing I think might be happening with him not gaining weight is that he has been sick the past week or so. He has a stuffy nose and has been sleeping so much lately. I know it is normal for a baby to sleep a lot but he is barely awake. I had a talk with my husband about breastfeeding and all. He has told me that I am not a failure too. Honestly, it took him saying that to me to believe it. I know I am not failing our son for not exclusively breastfeeding. I just want what is best for him and for him to gain weight and be healthy.
I am actually doing a whole lot better today. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist at the beginning of June. So I will go to that and see what he thinks. Thank you for being concerned and I will keep you updated on how things are going.
I think that all the stress I am going through right now might be affecting my milk supply. I am not sure I am producing enough to fill him up. So I am going to start pumping more. I am just waiting to heal up a little more before doing that. I can only imagine the emotional toll it was taking on you. I feel like in a way all these emotions are affecting my milk supply which is why he doesn't seem full even after 30-40 minutes of feeding.
I am honestly waiting for the day my doctor tells me to stop EBF him. I can see it coming. Especially if he doesn't gain enough weight. He isn't back to his birth weight yet and he is getting close to 3 weeeks old now. I am just so worried for him.
I am so worried that all the stress, emotions and anxiety are causing my milk suppy to hinder which is not enough to fill him up. I worry about everything. I don't know how to not worry.
Everyone is starting to feel better. Thank you for the kind words though. They help. I know that my emotions are running really high right now. I am working on myself to get better.
Thank you so much.
I am going to keep the appointment with my psychiatrist. I don't have it until the beginning of June. I owe it to myself to get better.I know it doesn't make me a failure. It's just hard to accept that my milk isn't enough for him. I am going to feed him and then pump to try and get my milk supply to come in more.
You know, I am struggling right now with everything going on but I am slowly figuring out how to make it through. I have the help of my husband and as long as I have him, I can do it.
As for nursing, I am slowly figuring out what is best for me and my son. It is still a struggle sometimes but I know it will get better. Even though I can exclusively breastfeed him, it's okay. I know that now. I know that he is going to grow into a healthy little boy.
If I have to end up going on medication, I know it's not a forever thing and I know that eventually I can work to getting off of them. If I need the help of meds in order to be okay for now, then I will take it.
We are really excited about moving soon. I only wish it was sooner.
Thank you for your concern. I really appreciate it.