XH emailed me late last night. Said he felt guilty and was scared of making the wrong choice. I need to remain NC. It's not going to be a problem because I think he's trying to shitstir.
I also need to firmly break it off with the guy I've been dating. It's just not working out. He eyerolled me last week (I find it disrespectful) and got pissed off at me (again) for some unknown reason. He makes me feel like I'm the dumbest person in the world. That's not what a healthy relationship is. So I need to find it in me to properly do it tonight.
Ugh. After this I want to have a long break, just to myself. No dating, no men, no expectations, no anything.