I need to go back to work. I don't want to, DD cherishes our time together and DD is turning 13- he needs me nearby too even if he acts like he doesn't.
I need to. To feel safer, to feel self sufficient and to know I can say goodbye to this M if it comes down to it.
My BA is in English (literature mainly). I have a minor in child development and family relations (please...don't laugh at that when you think of my history in this M).
I've been working with and teaching kids since Jan '94. Even during my SAHM time, I have had volunteer work teaching. I've helped MrH run his business (a commerce business). I taught myself how to set up, build and run a website so he can sell the items he designed and had manufactured.
I'm told I'm a good writer, intelligent and good with technology in general. I wouldn't call myself an expert because I know how much there is to learn.
I've worked with kids from newborn to seniors in HS (teaching HS English). I do not want to go back to teaching HS. I don't mind a complete career change out of teaching as long as it's within my talents. I was considering getting my masters in child development so I can teach at the community college or even college level. At this point I don't feel I should just go to school- it needs to be work too.
I can admit here I'm scared to take this step. Recent events have made clear to me that it's stupid to count on someone like MrH. Additionally, I just skimmed through a journal I kept sporadically since '01 and I realize just how stupid I've been. As much as I love being with my kids and it will break my heart to tell my DD we won't have as much time together...I need to do this.
So where can I go for advice?
Unless you need a more immediate plan to get out/be self sufficient, school is worth the time you invest into it - and if you aren't working, you can take more classes at once, and finish faster.
That said, if you do need the immediate income, whether for emotional or financial reasons, consider some "starter" positions to get your foot in the door somewhere - substitute teaching in many districts only requires a BA; temp work can get you into an office quickly if you're good at the work; etc.
Also, the university I attended offers free counseling by students learning career and personal counseling. They should have some resources for you there.
I'm not sure if it's the same in all states, but in AZ the Dept. of Economic Security was the government office that handled unemployment. They offered job counseling. You might look into this as an option too.
Have you started looking at job postings? You have a 4-year degree, which is a big leg in the door to many companies. Go to an aggregator like Indeed.com--they pull jobs from all of the other boards (Monster, Careerbuilders, etc.) and even from individual employers. It may seem daunting at first, but as you start to wade through the chaff, career ideas may start to materialize.
MrH recently informed me that the tuition for the kids is taken care of so that relieves some of the pressure. Now he claims that he just wanted me to work so I get out and socialize with adults more (yeah, teaching kids for 6-8hrs a day is gonna accomplish that ). Before that, it was all about the paycheck. I have issues with that because he won't follow a budget and any money I save ends up spent when he screws up our finances.
I could possibly, since FIL is paying the tuition, work as a sub and go to school. I think I'll make appointments at our local CC and employment center to explore my possibilities.
Sad- I've been looking at Indeed.com and a few other places like care.com. That's what has me so overwhelmed. When I was young, I thought I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up so I just applied to the schools that would be great to teach at. Now, I've changed but I have an established background. I'm not sure that's what I want to do just because it's a talent I have. That's why I'm thinking getting a higher degree in child development/ education and teaching that at a CC or higher level.
I'm just putting the cart before the horse, worrying about chores, finances, will I succeed, will I be able to create lesson plans or meet deadlines and still be there for my kids...I don't even have a job yet.
There used to be a state program called second start that counseled women re-entering the workforce after being SAHMs but my cursory google search didn't find that for your state.
But I would advise looking for state or local programs that target your situation. They exist and can be good ways to get started.
I would also encourage you to concentrate on non-profit organizations. They generally don't pay as well, but most need the very talents you have, most can offer flexible scheduling, and a year or two there, and then you can explore making more money if it comes to that.
EDIT: The thing about most non-profits is that they seek people passionate about the cause, so if it's something you know a lot about b/c you care, plus the skill sets you have, would make you an attractive candidate to that type of organization.
[This message edited by cayc at 8:53 PM, May 17th (Friday)]