I tried my best to numb out with things that always entertained me in a very benign way. Dumb, funny movies I could trust not to trigger me. Mario Kart. Hiking.
Think about something you can fixate on that will help muffle the mind movies. With time and practice the movies definitely fade away.
[This message edited by Jrazz at 12:51 AM, May 18th (Saturday)]
Me: BW 35
Crazz: WH 33
Daughter: 4.5 Going on 16
Time does help but you have to do things with the time as well in terms of managing them. Whenever I did something for the first few times that triggered me, I would say, "there. I did it. I am still standing." I kept doing that. It make me feel strong inside.
I am not a violent person but when I thought of the Ow, I imagined kicking her in the head. This would happen often in the shower. Perhaps that is bc we are so open/vulnerable there. Anyway...it worked.
Hugs to you!
Time does help, but my point is to try to redirect your thoughts....when the mind movies really hit hard and just sits on your brain, redirect....put on some loud music, dance around the house, jog around the block, get in your car and drive to the local coffee shop, take a warm bath, call a close friend, play a game on your Nook or IPad....anything to redirect your thoughts.
It is very difficult esp. in the beginning, I'm so sorry, wish we could be of more help.