Me: Enjoying life
I mailed our co-petition divorce papers last Wednesday. Seriously, the 8th of May. There is no waiting period in Oregon but I was told it would take 2-3 weeks, as long as there were no issues with the papers.
Today, in the mail..... final judgement entered and we are legally divorced as of Tuesday the 14th.
I have no idea how I feel about this..... I was in shock when I opened it, since it came so fast, then I cried... then I wanted to call him... then I was angry again because WHY did he have to cause this? WHY did he have to be so cruel, so faithless, so utterly remorseless while he killed all my dreams of the future I thought we had together? ... Then I cried some more....
Then... I don't know, I just went sort of numb. This all happened SO fast, it's hard to get my head around it. DDay was April 10, I confronted him April 12. He moved out April 20th- one month ago, tomorrow-, and now we are divorced.
I am just reeling.... And I can't help thinking that when he gets HIS letter, he will be happy. Relieved. So glad to be officially done with the bitch ex-wife he's been emotionally done with for months now. He and OW will probably go out to celebrate his freedom. Maybe they'll start talking about marriage. It's all a bright shiny fresh start for him. New job, new house, new woman. And here I am, alone, thrown away like last week's garbage. Old news, in the old house, with all the shattered pieces of the old life. I just feel so completely UNWANTED. I've been feeling that way since it happened, but seeing it in black and white, from the state... ouch. Just ouch.
[This message edited by gypsybird87 at 9:24 PM, May 17th (Friday)]
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