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libertyrocks posted 5/18/2013 09:16 AM

Finally cried myself to sleep last night. Hadn't cried in weeks. I think of all those times he wasn't around, the times he didn't want to be around us, the times he told me he didn't care about me, the many times he wouldn't kiss me back, the times I was taking care of our newborns alone, both of them. This continued for 3 years up until 6 months ago.

Things are great now, he's truly remorseful and very supportive now.

I'm still so crushed inside. I think of all those girls he took out and it makes me sick.

Like everyone else I wish this would have never happened.

Guess, I'm having a bad day.

GraceisGood posted 5/18/2013 11:15 AM

(((((((((libertyrocks))))))))

Grace

LA44 posted 5/18/2013 11:42 AM

Yes,of course. YOu need lots of virtual hugs today LR!

You have cried yourself to sleep - they are all dry now but I know a million more run inside of you. I get it.

Do something good for you today.

LA

Patchy posted 5/18/2013 12:28 PM

(((((((libertyrocks))))))))

We feel your pain, girl. Hang in there.

RoadtoPeace posted 5/18/2013 12:35 PM

(((libertytocks)). God do I know exactly how you feel. All I can say is let the feelings and tears flow through you. We are here for you.

catlover50 posted 5/18/2013 12:38 PM

((((libertyrocks)))). What a waste. But the only way to go is forward.

I hope tomorrow is a better day.

Skan posted 5/18/2013 16:17 PM

Such a waste of time, wasn't it ... Time that can never be recovered. (((hugs)))

Lionne posted 5/18/2013 22:18 PM

I hear you, honey. I feel that way, too. My SAfWH keeps telling me that he wants to make up for it in our present and future but it's so hard not to have resentment and regret.

Hugs to you. I hope you feel better soon...

libertyrocks posted 5/20/2013 15:08 PM

Hugs and kisses to everyone.

Thank you.

SoVerySadNow posted 5/20/2013 15:44 PM

Yes, time he wasted---
(((LR)))

[This message edited by SoVerySadNow at 3:44 PM, May 20th (Monday)]

crazyblindsided posted 5/20/2013 17:33 PM

he wants to make up for it in our present and future but it's so hard not to have resentment and regret.

Yes this ^ is the hard part for me. How do you not develop resentment after an A. I have all kinds of resentment and then half of the time I regret not kicking WS out on 1st DDay.