NOTE: The following is said in a spirit of love and helpfulness. Anytime a person needs CPR, it is common that they suffer a couple of broken ribs as a result. It's for their own good. You, brother, need CPR.
I have never seen her so depressed and angry and hurt. I cant get her to open up about anything except the A.
And this surprises you why? She's watching ATV...24 hours a day, 7 days a week, non-stop, commercial-free "Jack's A ruined my life" programming. You've broken NC, you showed the ow SI and outed your BS's posts. You're making everything about you. You are terrorizing her right now. If you want to help her, stop hurting her. Stop with the half-assed pity-party attention seeking behaviors. Put your bullshit aside and dig in. Do the work on yourself and do everything...everything, Jack, that's in your power to help her come back. Start taking accountability for the pain you've caused, accept that you can't undo it, and get to work.
Enough whining, Jack. You're saying the same thing over and over in different ways. Time for some real action. Its on you to make it happen.
Her: BW, and the most amazing, beautiful person I've ever known
It is counterintuitive really... the less we defend our well-being, the more well we feel. ~ Nancy Colier