Newly single and trying to find my feet.
In the space of 2 months, my (now)xSO had a bad motorbike accident, spent a month in hospital, I found out about his online antics, and he has now moved back home with his family 800kms away and we are no longer together (I felt I had no options but to end "us").
I am reeling from all of this and in shock. He refused to speak much about what he was doing online (and I didn't press too much because of his mental health problems and as he was still recovering from the motorbike accident).
All I know is that he was on multiple sex hook up sites, and had advertised for sex with women, men or couples. He was also on web cam sites and fling finder sites and had talked to/initiated contact with, many people. He says he never met anyone in person, and I think this is true from the emails I have seen, and also he used to just pretty much just go to work and come straight home.
I am struggling to understand why he did this. I thought we were happy. He said it was boredom and just wanting to see people's reactions and was a bit of an addiction for him. He got angry if I pushed for more details.
I ended the relationship. I have no children with him and i'm not married to him, so I didn't want to spend the next x amount of years not trusting him and checking up on him. Problem is I am missing him big time and grieving the loss of him. I still can't stop crying and feel I have had no closure and no real questions answered from him. We are only in very infrequent contact on email.
Any suggestions on how to get closure without it being from him? I guess I should look into getting some IC? Thanks in advance for any thoughts.
[This message edited by sparklingwater at 3:17 AM, May 20th (Monday)]
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