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User Topic: New trigger
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♂ 38122
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Default  Posted: 11:24 PM, May 20th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I found out last week that my STBXW is now screwing an ex-neighbour. When we used to hang out with this couple, she hated him fiercely. Then they moved away and divorced. Now that I'm gone, she's fallen into his arms - makes me wonder about all that hate she had for him.

Since we separated, I've been going to as many musical things as possible - playing with and in front of others makes me feel a little less crazy.

On Monday nights I've been going to an open stage. I love this event, and look forward to it every week.

However, there is another regular there who looks a lot like STBXW's fuck-buddy. Whenever I see him, I think of STBXW banging this dude, and wonder how long it's really been happening.

I don't want to stop going to my open stage, but need to be able to see this other musician without the mind-movies. What can I do to get my brain out of this?


Loyal spouse: Me; Disloyal spouse: The Princess
Two sons: Now 11 and 14
DDay: Nov 15, 2012
Separated: Mar 2, 2013 after 17 year marriage, now divorcing!

The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous


Posts: 2157 | Registered: Jan 2013
ButterflyGirl
♀ 38377
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Default  Posted: 11:44 PM, May 20th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I know that feeling. The biggest red flag I missed was my cousin telling me he hit on her, but he always told me how much he hated her, so for that and other reasons, I didn't believe her and thought she was misunderstood. BIG mistake on my part. Of course now I wonder about all the other women he said that about, because they were quite a few. Manipulative bastards..

Anyhoo, the only thing I can think of right now is to stare at him for a few minutes and try to think of anybody else he looks like. Or give him a few extra features in your head to make him look like someone else, like maybe Gary Busey, ha ha.

But don't let this trigger stop you from going! Open night sounds like a fabulous time and a great outlet for you


xBW~ 35
Two DS~ 7-Eleven
"I've wiped the shit off. It can be wiped off you know." ~ asurvivor

Posts: 2646 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: Florida, USA
Pass
♂ 38122
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Default  Posted: 11:10 PM, May 21st (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks BG, I'll give that a try.

I'm definitely going to keep going to the open stage. Any nights that I can play music help me to keep from going crazy.

And dude, I need all the help I can get!


Loyal spouse: Me; Disloyal spouse: The Princess
Two sons: Now 11 and 14
DDay: Nov 15, 2012
Separated: Mar 2, 2013 after 17 year marriage, now divorcing!

The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous


Posts: 2157 | Registered: Jan 2013
ButterflyGirl
♀ 38377
Member # 38377
Default  Posted: 11:34 PM, May 21st (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I totally agree. Music is great for the soul. The kids and I have been having "Rock Band" sessions on the PS3 lately with my sister. It's not quite the real thing, but I always end up feeling like a rock star. My 9-year-old is really good at the drums and guitar, and my 5-year-old is really starting to kick butt on the keytar


xBW~ 35
Two DS~ 7-Eleven
"I've wiped the shit off. It can be wiped off you know." ~ asurvivor

Posts: 2646 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: Florida, USA
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