This weekend my BH is tackling a huge trigger.
For the past 25+ years, Memorial Day weekend has always been a big party at my BFF's house. She lives in the country and lots of us get together and spend three days hanging out - eating, fishing, shooting guns, drinking, playing horseshoes, bonfire - big ol' party. I have gone just about every year with my DS and my husband joined us when he wasn't traveling.
We didn't go last year because her house is a big trigger for my BH.
Up until DDay, I would often go down on a weekend and hang out with my BFF & her husband, spending the night. One drunken night during my A, I sent my AP a text telling him that I was horny. We texted a couple times then briefly talked on the phone. Several months after DDay, my BH discovered the text exchanges while going through my Skype log. I forgot about this exchange with my AP, so this was TT about 6 months or so out.
Honestly, I would not have a problem if we didn't go this year but our DS was so disappointed that we didn't go last year. He is 15 and he really enjoys himself hanging out with the other kids and adults (he's very mature for his age). He loves to fish, something he doesn't do much, and we have a ton of fireworks we picked up from South of The Border - Really good fireworks. 
I was just making some food to take and it hit me - I really don't want to go. I would be happy if we stayed home and worked in our garden. Thank God we are only staying for one night and it will be good to see some old friends.
We are playing in a golf tournament on Monday, so that gives us something to really look forward to.
So if you have some good karma to spare, please send it our way. I know it will be a tough day & even tougher night for my BH.
So looking forward to Monday...
