Saw my IC yesterday and when I went in my head was all confused; I was all over the place! I want him back, I don't want him back, I hate him, I love him...blah, blah, blah. When I left I felt better; had a plan as to how to deal with this separation. I went and got a second job that I will start sometime next week! Yay for me! It will only be a couple evenings a week and every other weekend but it will fill some of my down time up and I don't have to sit in this apartment and think as much. I also went for a 5 mile walk and listened to my inspirational music which helped clear my head too. Then I went out with a bunch of friends last night and had a blast!
Today, at least since 5 a.m. I have been feeling stronger. I've got my plans set and I can see through this tunnel vision where I'm going in the next week which is HUGE for me as before I couldn't tell where I was going from minute to minute. Baby steps I guess!
I'm just feeling a little more positive about my life today and wanted to share my feelings for the day! Got plans tonight too so that helps also. We'll see what tomorrow and Monday bring. I know I'm on a rollercoaster right now but at least today I'm over the first hill!