Maybe I just present well, because I am so emotionally detached from all the bullshit? Idk. It's not really helpful at all to be told I'm handling everything well.
Oh bunnycat, do I EVER get this. I've been a therapy junkie on and off over many years. My most recent therapist, who is really good, said something to me that no other therapist has - she said "You function extremely well on the surface." And it was like a lightbult went off, because it is SOOOO true.
And we made more progress than I have with most in a short period of time, I actually felt accountable, but then I stopped going about six weeks ago. Partially because of the expense, she doesn't take insurance so I have to pay for the full session, but if I'm completely honest, I think I also stopped because we were starting to hit some areas I'd never gone to before and I think it scared me. I'm still putting a lot of thought into that.
I think we are all a work in progress, and I do believe just the fact that we consider our limitations, or even perceived limitations, means something with regard to our healing - I believe it indicates some level of progress.
You may still need some IC help to get there at some point, but at least you are getting somewhere. I recently started reading The Journey from Abandonment to Healing - it's been very insightful, if you haven't read it. And keep posting - SI is an incredible lifeline - use it. ((Hugs))
Status: D 2011
Remarried to a kind and wonderful man - 2017
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K.