For some reason, I feel like I've discovered something new. I feel pain that I haven't felt in weeks. I sobbed after we hung up (he said to "have a good afternoon").
For over 3 months, he couldn't remember the year he first saw a prostitute. Now he suddenly remembers? I don't understand. I am now racking my brains wondering what was going in our lives back then ... this is a horrible feeling.
D-Day, June 10, 2012
I do wonder if he has tried not to remember until now? And I wonder what it was about our relationship then that suddenly made him plan to go and see a prostitute? And then 12 more in the following year or two? (Some more than once.) Or should I stop wondering about our relationship and just conclude that it was him that was broken? Urgh, I hate this.
I also feel uncomfortable posting about this because of the things I've done. I just desperately needed to vent as I'm feeling very low.
[This message edited by grapefruit at 11:12 PM, May 27th (Monday)]