I WILL NOT drink the Kool Aid.
We will be heading back to US for 1 month. I would have stayed 2 months- but I did not want to leave WS alone for longer than necessary. Do some you all still feel like you are "babysitting". I hate that I feel like I have to do this. Funny thing is that A happened in US. OW is in US not here.
I dread the trip home. I know at some point WS and OW paths will cross. He swears he will avoid any meetings he is aware she might be at. BUT it is still no peace of mind. All I can think of is that A happened in US. Do I really want to go back?
While we are home WS was trying to plan a trip for just the 2 of us out of state at a work related conference. I could tag along like we did before we had kids. It was suppose to be our "weekend" away that my IC has been suggesting. Now WS is telling me he just wants to veg at home. I understand the need to just do nothing- but I was really looking forward to this trip. I told him if we don't take the trip then I don't want him galavanting around with his friends when we could be spending the time together. Sounds a bit bitchy, oh well.
Some days I think of just staying here in China all by myself for the whole month do more of the sightseeing I want to do that the kids don't want to do. Would be nice if WS was with me, but at this point I could care less. Maybe I'll have to get away on my own in the US- go somewhere I always wanted to.
On the plus side, WS IC will most likely be our MC and MC said he wants to start intensive counseling with us as soon as we get back from the US. I am anxious to start this.
The grass is greener on the other side. But they put chemicals on theirs.