I guess i am throwing caution to the wind a bit. 1. To show him i have just an ounce of trust and also to test him. 2. To see if anything does arise. So tired of it consuming my mind.
I did physically go and see her last year to get answers and so she could see who she was hurting. I intimidated her which was so empowering and told her some home truths about what was happening here at home. The dumb wench was believing everything my WH was telling her like that we dont have sex anymore.
This time when i called her she sounded different. I think she figured out it was all about him. She said he wants his cake and she is not interested in that. That he had also lied to her and hurt her and that she had deleted his number from her phone. I know he wont use his phone as he knows i can check the phone log regularly as i have busted him this way before.
He doesnt want to change his number. This pisses me off but she is blocked on FB. I have been told she has also moved house. He doesnt have the guts to see her face to face. He knows he has screwed her over too.
Not that i give a shit about her. She did apologise to me and this sounded sincere. She hoped that things would get better for me and my son. Perhaps she has seen the light. Maybe she wont go to hell now......but there is hope for that.
I will ask and check and would much rather have her blocked but hate the number being visual. I feel better now that there is not one tiny bit of her left in my home. He is behaving better after me recently telling him the things i will NOTtolerate and that our M would be final if i find anything.
Just hate the doubt and suspicion that is permantly inbedded in my mind after all the stellar lies he told me. I discovered SO much and cant fathom how he could have comfortably did this knowing full well that i knew it was continuing.
He told me last weekend that he is not proud of what he has done. Really wants our marriage to workand us be a family. How long does it take to start believing?
I cant allow myself as when i did this previously it turned out to be lies.
How do i know the difference? So confusing!
Thanks everyone for your support.
Hope you're all hanging in there.