BS - Me
I am facing a potentially serious health issue that is going to require more tests. I sent POS an email and basically told him a generic version of events and that I was kindly asking for only communication that was absolutely necessary as I just can't take anymore stress at the moment until I get through the next couple of weeks. About a half hour later goes by and my cell rings. His number comes in as private so I am never sure if it is him or not. Sure enough it was. This was the first time we have spoken since March when he left. He was the charming, thoughtful man I married. Asked me if I wanted him to come back so he could go thru this with me. I told him it wasn't necessary, but inside I was crying, "YES!" He said he wishes he was here to give me a big hug. His big ol' bear hugs were one of my favorite things and I started to cry because all I could think of was how much I need that hug right now. Then I could tell he was choking up as well (which he never does). He then said we will put everything with the D on hold until I find out for sure what is or is not going on with my health. That is fine as my "fight" mode is suffering at the moment. He also told me I could call him any time, day or night, even if I just needed to talk to someone. I got sucked right into the thoughtfulness and it was killing me. This is the same man that always sent me flowers at work for every occasion, gave me cards for everything, and was overall Prince Charming in so many ways. I know it is more like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hide, but boy it was nice to have the thoughtful and kind side of his personality for a change. It was almost my undoing. This is the man I wanted to grow old with...God this sucks!!
[This message edited by Phoenix1 at 1:36 AM, June 4th (Tuesday)]
XPOS - too many OW/OCs over 20+yrs
Kids - DDs 23,18 -DS20 Deceased
M Dissolved 2013
This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man ~ Shakespeare, Hamlet