We were solidly into R and most of my time spent on SI is for venting or searching for helpful posts that back my conclusions (or give opposing advice). I'm a big boy and can filter out the comments that are far from my own situation. I'm sure everyone means well but it's hard to gauge a situation based on one post.
SI has helped me so much and both my fWW and I both look at it daily, but it adds to the actions we are doing in R. It solidifies the courses of action that we are taking and/or offers us a chance to vent in a healthy way.
I don't plan to leave, but the number of posts I read has decreased.
Perhaps. Don't know. But I do know that I wish I had found this site earlier.
I was 12 months post DDAY and still struggling.
There are so many things I wish I had known those first 12 months. Feel like I was navigating this all alone.
So now, it is part therapy for me. To hopefully help others and to be reassured that we are not alone in our journey of recovery.
If you still find peace here then I would say still come. If your husband does not, then he doesn't have to.
You are healing together yet are still two separate people who will find inspiration in different ways.
Good luck to you both. May God bless you on your journey of healthy healing.
I found SI to be at least as important to my healing as our IC/MC, and I feel we had an excellant IC/MC.
Over time I have noticed I have drifted out of the JFO and General, and spendf more time in R and ICR.
If you like it here,stay. WH doesn't get to decide what you do to heal yourself.
I love SI. It is one of the only places I can 'go" that I feel normal. Most of the time I feel like what WH has done has made me "different" than other people. Here on SI I feel safe..it's comfortable..it's home.
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
At C's best, IC/MC is confrontation by an insightful, sensitive person who sees all of you IRL. That can be very powerful, but it's limited to working with one person with one set of experiences. At SI's best, we provide feedback and confrontation based on a very wide variety of experiences based on what you post. Both can be really, really valuable, depending on what you want and need at a particular moment.
As others have written, the important thing is what you decide works for you. Making that decision may require experimentation, so keep in mind that you can take one path, see how it goes, and move to another path if you want to. You've got the power - enjoy it.
I guess he thinks there are more raw hurt stories than positive R stories and that it can't help me heal to read them.
Has he read the Positive Reconciliation Stories sticky thread?
At first, it was a wonderful place to vent, get support, learn. Then I found I needed a break to regroup because it was triggering me. I guess I needed the emotional break, but the healing needed to go further.
Now, when I come on and read stories that others share, it helps me to see MYSELF. It's funny, when you read someone else's story and you think what they should do, and you get an "aha" moment when you see your own story. It gives perspective.
Also, coming here as you are healing, you can help others as they have helped you when you were so raw.
Couples who are soundly in R are an invaluable resource to this site. They give a different perspective to the people who are new and in pain. They encourage couples who are trying to R and hand out 2x4s when someone starts to go off the rails.
The great thing about SI is to take what you need and leave the rest.
Can you get depressed over the failed relationships, yes!!
Can you gain strength from the positive stories, yes!!
IC was helpful for me but SI is the place I learned patience. Patience with me and my need to grieve, be angry and slowly heal...patience to see if H could change.......if his actions would line up with his words.....patience throughout the R process with it's ups and downs.
Without SI I would never have learned that reconciliation is a process that takes time and hard work. Seeing other's stories and experiences enabled me to look realistically at how we were progressing and prepared me for what might happen as we continue to move further away from Dday.
When it comes to healing, you are your own best advocate....do what works for you.
SI is the place I learned patience.
SI is the place I learned patience.
Our d-day was in October and we "graduated" from MC in December. Without SI I would have been adrift in a sea of total confusion. I thought since we graduated we (I) was supposed to be happy and recovered. Without SI I never would have learned that my feelings were normal and ok.
When I needed support when I first found out I got it. When we had rough days and I felt like I was dying I got sympathy.
But I haven't gotten any support and encouragement now that we are doing great again. My last post was all positives about how H and I had renewed our wedding vows and were doing so well. No comments. no anything. I sort of thought that I'd get some excitement and someone to share my happiness from the people here. Because you guys are the only one who knows how much crap I've gone through to get here. You know, because you've been there.
I think this is a good place for support when you need it the most, when your world has crumbled. It is nice to know you are not alone.
But now I do sort of feel alone in making my marriage work again, and living in a happy marriage with this really awful chapter in it. Yes, there is a sticky with some stories. But it isn't what people are talking about. There are very few threads focused on happy marriages, even here in the R forum.
So yeah, I sort of agree with your H that once you have other, positive, support and you two are on the same team again, SI might not be as beneficial.
It's like a male gynaecologist being at the birth of a child... he has all the knowledge and can help you through a crisis. On the other hand, your mother or friend who has actually GIVEN BIRTH is an enormous support to you, because she has BEEN there, she knows how it FEELS in a way the gynae never will. BOTH are valuable people to have around at that moment!
My last post was all positives about how H and I had renewed our wedding vows and were doing so well
I haven't been on here in a while because things are going pretty well and life has been busy-- which is good!
Where is the vow renewal? Your last post was very generic and you did get a response.
Often in R you just don't get 15 pages of responses - unless the R is tanking because of an unremorseful WS or the OP won't back off.
Hang in there... we do care.