Topic: Dammit. I Knew Better.
Member # 17460
| Posted: 12:34 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
DSD #2's birthday is today. I haven't seen her in over five years.
The only contact we've had has been me sending her birthday text messages and her acknowledging them. My conversation thread with her is very thin as a result.
Still...I hemmed and hawed for the past few weeks on even sending one this year. I have tried to stay on the high road and acknowledge her and her sister's birthdays even though it's painfully obvious they don't really want me in their lives. The last time DSD #1 contacted me was around the holidays. I've seen my(?) granddaughter twice since she was born - shortly after her birth and at Christmas. No contact since then, though I've pulled back myself (that "hot stove" theory we all know so well).
I've not been wished a Happy Birthday by either of them in years. Mother's Day? Naw. I guess my replacement has taken over for that.
As a result, I was *thisclose* to not sending it but relented this morning and off it went.
When I didn't see a response after a couple of hours, I sent a text to Rico asking if her number was the same thinking (hoping) it had changed.
It hasn't. It's pretty freaking obvious she received it and is choosing to not respond. I guess it is her way of permanently closing the door.
So be it. I guess you really can be in someone's life since they were 14 months old and raise them from 3 years old well into their twenties and still not mean a damn thing to them.
I really wish I had just listened to myself.
Oh well. Onward and upward.
Fidelity isn't a feeling...it's a choice.
"Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now - always." - Albert Schweitzer
Me: BW - Him: 200+ # tumor removed 7/09
DS - 31 - Yikes!
Posts: 21290 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: Been Through Hell...On My Way Back
Member # 14003
| Posted: 12:36 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
A relationship without trust is like a car without gas. You can stay in it all you want, but it won't go anywhere.
Posts: 14719 | Registered: Mar 2007 | From: Houston
Member # 33226
| Posted: 12:36 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
You can call me NIK
This is it. The darkest day. The blackest hour. Chin up, shoulders back. Let's see what we're made of, you and I.
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Member # 2
| Posted: 12:42 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
I'm really sorry
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)
My tolerance for stupid shit is getting less and less.
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Member # 31528
| Posted: 12:44 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
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| Posted: 1:38 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
it's painfully obvious they don't really want me in their lives.
Print this out and put it on your fridge.
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
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to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
Posts: 19679 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: Canada
Member # 2959
| Posted: 3:26 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
Their lost because most sane people would all who love them in their lives.
Speaks volumes about which life path they chosen to take.
Sorry it turned out this way. Time to close the doors and windows in that house.
Those three words are said too much and not enough.
Chasing Cars-Snow Patrol.
Posts: 1668 | Registered: Dec 2003 | From: Some where in New Jersey
Member # 10798
| Posted: 4:29 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
ajsmom--sorry that happened. You are the bigger person and good for you for continuing to try and keep in contact. It really sucks that some people can be so cold, or cruel or maybe just clueless about those things. It really says more about her than it will ever say about you.
Act as if what you do matters. It does. William James
Posts: 2241 | Registered: May 2006 | From: Midwest
Member # 33699
| Posted: 4:56 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
I'm so sorry (((((((Ajsmom)))))))
"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indominable will" - Mahatma Gandi
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - Aubrie
Posts: 3954 | Registered: Oct 2011 | From: Georgia
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| Posted: 7:10 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
Someone I once loved gave me/ a box full of darkness/ It took me years to understand/ That this, too, was a gift. - Mary Oliver
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Member # 36134
| Posted: 7:16 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
I trust you is a better compliment than I love you, because you may not trust the person you love, but you can always love the person you trust. - Unknown
Relationships are like sharing a book, it doesn't work if you're not on the same page.
Posts: 6671 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Florida
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| Posted: 7:20 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
I'm so sorry.
Me ($39.95 plus S & H)
Enjoying this chapter in my life.
Learning that being alone does not mean being lonely.
Discovering that where I've been is not as important as where I'm going.
Posts: 421 | Registered: Jan 2011 | From: Right Here, Canada
Member # 1330
| Posted: 7:33 PM, June 4th (Tuesday), 2013|
You know . . . This isn't about you. It is about not upsetting the apple art with their father, who would take it out on them. Plus, as they look to him for an example, well, you get the picture.
It doesn't make it any less hurtful.
However, the more I learn about NPD and its ripple effect on everyone around the narcissist, the more sense these seemingly random acts of cruelty make.
The narcissist's love and devotion is conditional and must be earned daily under a set of ever changing rules.
[This message edited by Catwoman at 7:34 PM, June 4th (Tuesday)]
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D-Days: 2/23/93; 10/11/97; 3/5/03
Ex & OW Broke up 12-10
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Posts: 30504 | Registered: Apr 2003 | From: Massachusetts
Member # 14054
| Posted: 8:52 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
Just hugs for you...
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Member # 38597
| Posted: 8:58 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
They can never turn around and accuse you of abandoning them. Maybe one day they'll grow up emotionally and see how much you've done for them. If not, at least you can have peace that you tried.
DDay Feb. 28, 2013
"It is an act of self-respect and preservation to not forgive."
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Member # 10552
| Posted: 9:04 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
Travel light, live light, spread the light, be the light. ~ Yogi Bhajan
Posts: 15703 | Registered: Apr 2006 | From: Now an AZ girl
Member # 30341
| Posted: 9:33 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
So sorry. (((ajsmom)))
DDay 11/17/2010 BW:53
Posts: 3823 | Registered: Dec 2010 | From: Iowa
Member # 16671
| Posted: 10:08 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
I'm sorry honey. I came to that same conclusion about my nieces on XH side. I raised their moms so they were more like grand babies to me than nieces.
It hurts, and then you move on.
Me(BS)45(at the time of D-day)
Divorced 2009, Closing on house Nov 2011 -
No longer waiting for the other "she" to drop.
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Member # 33934
| Posted: 10:09 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
Me(37) DS(9) DD 11/16/11 EA(PA?) M 11y D 9/3/13
Don't make anyone a priority when you are only an option.
Posts: 1158 | Registered: Nov 2011
|Sad in AZ|
Member # 24239
| Posted: 11:17 AM, June 5th (Wednesday), 2013|
And now you know better some more. I'm sorry you're hurt. (((((ajsmom)))))
You are important and you matter. Your feelings matter. Your voice matters. Your story matters. Your life matters. Always.
Posts: 23418 | Registered: Jun 2009 | From: Southern New Mexico
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