Three years ago today my wife, putonahapppyface, found out about my betrayal to our wedding vows. It was devasting to her and to or family. I woke up today knowing the date but not acknowledging it to her. I should have simply wrote her a note that said "I love you", however, a simple note like that can't erase the impact of what I did to our marriage.
We are starting our fourth year of recovery and we have had good days and bad. I firmly believe we are on our way to recovery. Since June 4, 2010 we had another crisis in our marriage and that was the discovery of my addiction to pornography on November 15, 2012. I am an SA and actively going SA meetings. I am 201 days sober. The impact of pornography on a marriage cannot be trivialized and if anyone out there is struggling with it you must seek help either through IC or go to a SAA or SA meeting. The only help is surrender. You cannot white knuckle that addiction.
To my wife, I LOVE YOU. I love the grace and forgiveness you have offered to me. I love your outer and inner beauty. I love the way you mother our two boys. I love how you love our pets..........even our dog Spike.
I have married my best friend. She has chosen to stay with me. I am the luckiest man to have her. I promise that I will be a faithful, truthful, husband with integrity to our marriage. Putonahappy face........you are my best friend, you put a happy face on me when you smile and I can't wait to live the rest of my life with you