its getting to me, i hate myself for missing him so much, wanting to see him, wanting to be with him, wanting "us" again
I hate this rollar coaster ride, I recently posted that i was done and now this??? WTF?????
It doesnt help that our son's birthday, Father's day and WH's birthday is coming up
But I just miss him so much, I want to feel his arms around me, I want him to hold me and tell me this nightmare is over, that he is back to stay, that it is over with OW, I hate this so much
Havent seen him in almost 11 weeks, hardly talk on the phone and not many texts.
Sorry about this but I just needed to get it out somehow, texting or calling him is not an option, he doesnt need to know how desperate i am right now, this will pass i know
And none of my friends can relate to what i am going through, by now, many are probably sick of it
Guess it will be a night crying myself to sleep, glad i dont have as many moments like this anymore but for whatever reason, it is really overwhelming tonight