Sorry, Yak, I think you need a 2 X 4: How do you get 9 months of R?
On 3/14 you posted that your W left and that she wasn't really doing what was needed to heal herself, much less to R. Apparently she came back, because on May 14, you posted that you were separating and she moved out again.
R is possible for you, but your W is the road block. You're already on board; her commitment is very, very much unproven. One day at a time now, and for months to come.
I understand you're excited to have her back with you, but you need to treat your relationship as extremely shaky for the foreseeable future - focus your energy on today alone.
[This message edited by sisoon at 2:23 PM, June 6th (Thursday)]