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hellonearth posted 6/6/2013 03:21 AM

Hello all....well, I think that I am finally experiencing a VERY much delayed physical sadness, but I want to check with you guys who are "normal" grievers. I have had a fear of sadness (anxiety associated) my whole life for reasons due to past traumas. I covered all up with anger, although believe me...I have cried ALOT, I don't think all the sadness got out, ya know? Anyways...did you or do you have an actual physical heavy heart feeling when you are sad...aching sort of in the left chest area?? I have also had palpitations recently and an increased heartbeat from time to time. In case you are wondering....I will be seeing my doctor as well, but where I'm at in my trauma therapy as well I had a trauma release massage about 3 wks ago and WOW....is all I can say...either I've got some new anxiety symptoms which have surfaced, or I've got some "stuck" emotions in my body finally coming out (nearly 7 yrs later plus childhood repressed stuff).

Tell me, did you feel physical sensations in your heart area with sadness feelings/triggers...the only I have ever felt in the past was wanting to cry, but no actual physical feelings.

THANK YOU!!!!!

TrustGone posted 6/6/2013 03:31 AM

Yes. I have had some heart symptoms and have been checked out by a cardiologist. Mostly I just have an empty feeling in my body, like something is missing. The body does weird things when you add a lot of stress and anxiety. Mine has brought out an autoimmune response where I developed antibodies that attack my platelets. So now when I start to bleed anywhere internally (normal) I can't stop bleeding on my own. This all started about a month after DDay#1 and I almost died from it twice since then.

Do not ignore your body. It is telling you that something is not right. ((HUGS))

sodamnlost posted 6/6/2013 07:15 AM

While I agree a trip to the doc is a good idea, I so have this. It feels like an elephant sitting on my chest. Heart feels like its racing and then sometimes, like my guts are being ripped out. All three combines sucks.

ItsaClimb posted 6/6/2013 09:26 AM

Yes I have had this too.

anv5 posted 6/6/2013 11:37 AM

Yes I had this super bad right away & it has gotten better but it hurt so bad I didn't know how I could take it....it was a deep intense pain and one night I woke up crying & ended up waking H because I couldn't hardly breathe the pain was so bad. Thankfully it has gotten better but somedays I still hurt physically

somanyyears posted 6/6/2013 15:48 PM

..absolutely.. an on-going painful pressure.. continues even after 4 years in R..

..have been to cardiologist for complete physio testing and will need follow-up visits in July and Sept.

..the elephant on the chest describes it well. painful and relentless.

..can't call it anything but heart ache caused by this lifelong double betrayal.

..add the aspect of PTSD.. feeling like my insides have been put thru a blender..

..ain't marriage grand????

smy

tooanalytical posted 6/6/2013 20:28 PM

Yes. I guess it is normal. My heart physically hurt for two years.

mindisgone posted 6/7/2013 11:07 AM

It is grief.

crazyblindsided posted 6/7/2013 13:28 PM

I suffer from a broken heart too. My heart palpitations also increased after DDay, but not as much since I've been on meds for AD and mood swings.

I suffer greatly from PTSD, stemming from childhood sexual abuse to physical abuse, now to infidelity.

I am far from feeling 'normal'