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hellonearth (original poster member #11919) posted at 9:21 AM on Thursday, June 6th, 2013
Hello all....well, I think that I am finally experiencing a VERY much delayed physical sadness, but I want to check with you guys who are "normal" grievers. I have had a fear of sadness (anxiety associated) my whole life for reasons due to past traumas. I covered all up with anger, although believe me...I have cried ALOT, I don't think all the sadness got out, ya know? Anyways...did you or do you have an actual physical heavy heart feeling when you are sad...aching sort of in the left chest area?? I have also had palpitations recently and an increased heartbeat from time to time. In case you are wondering....I will be seeing my doctor as well, but where I'm at in my trauma therapy as well I had a trauma release massage about 3 wks ago and WOW....is all I can say...either I've got some new anxiety symptoms which have surfaced, or I've got some "stuck" emotions in my body finally coming out (nearly 7 yrs later plus childhood repressed stuff).
Tell me, did you feel physical sensations in your heart area with sadness feelings/triggers...the only I have ever felt in the past was wanting to cry, but no actual physical feelings.
THANK YOU!!!!!
BS-Me-39 FWH-Him-38
Together 23 yrs. 1 son 9 yrs old
Dday#1-Aug 06
TT until Nov 06
False R until Jan 08-too much anger/defensiveness, lack of consistent support from him
S- Jan 08-July 08
Aug 08-Fall 2011-rugsweeping
back in MC and IC trying
TrustGone ( member #36654) posted at 9:31 AM on Thursday, June 6th, 2013
Yes. I have had some heart symptoms and have been checked out by a cardiologist. Mostly I just have an empty feeling in my body, like something is missing. The body does weird things when you add a lot of stress and anxiety. Mine has brought out an autoimmune response where I developed antibodies that attack my platelets. So now when I start to bleed anywhere internally (normal) I can't stop bleeding on my own. This all started about a month after DDay#1 and I almost died from it twice since then.
Do not ignore your body. It is telling you that something is not right. ((HUGS))
XWH#2-No longer my monkey Divorced 8/15, Now married to a wonderful man.
"A person is either an asset or a lesson"
"Changing who you are with does not change who you are"
sodamnlost ( member #37190) posted at 1:15 PM on Thursday, June 6th, 2013
While I agree a trip to the doc is a good idea, I so have this. It feels like an elephant sitting on my chest. Heart feels like its racing and then sometimes, like my guts are being ripped out. All three combines sucks.
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
ItsaClimb ( member #37107) posted at 3:26 PM on Thursday, June 6th, 2013
BS 52
Together 35 yrs, M 31 years
2 daughters 30yo(married with 2 children) & 25yo
D-Day 18 Aug 2012
6mth EA lead to 4mth PA with CO-W. I found out 8 1/2 yrs later
anv5 ( member #39217) posted at 5:37 PM on Thursday, June 6th, 2013
Yes I had this super bad right away & it has gotten better but it hurt so bad I didn't know how I could take it....it was a deep intense pain and one night I woke up crying & ended up waking H because I couldn't hardly breathe the pain was so bad. Thankfully it has gotten better 
but somedays I still hurt physically 
BS(me)30
WH 29
1 Child
Married 11 yrs
D-Day: 4/9/13 he cheated in '08 & now + trickle truth & tons of lies 6/27 Found more, swears I really do have the whole truth now.
2/2/14 found out more...it seems the TT never ends.
Trying to R
somanyyears ( member #26970) posted at 9:48 PM on Thursday, June 6th, 2013
..absolutely.. an on-going painful pressure.. continues even after 4 years in R..
..have been to cardiologist for complete physio testing and will need follow-up visits in July and Sept.
..the elephant on the chest describes it well. painful and relentless.
..can't call it anything but heart ache caused by this lifelong double betrayal.
..add the aspect of PTSD.. 
feeling like my insides have been put thru a blender..
..ain't marriage grand????
smy
trust no other human- love only your pets. Reconciled I think! Me 77 Her 74 Married 52 yrs. 18 yr LTA with bff/lawyer. Little fucker died at 57.Brain tumour!
tooanalytical ( member #22306) posted at 2:28 AM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
Yes. I guess it is normal. My heart physically hurt for two years.
Me BH 44
FWW 44
Married 21 years
D-Day Apr 29, 2008
Children: 19,17,14
EA/PA - 1 year
Status: R
mindisgone ( member #17772) posted at 5:07 PM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
too long a sacrifice can make a stone of the heart..
crazyblindsided ( member #35215) posted at 7:28 PM on Friday, June 7th, 2013
I suffer from a broken heart too. My heart palpitations also increased after DDay, but not as much since I've been on meds for AD and mood swings.
I suffer greatly from PTSD, stemming from childhood sexual abuse to physical abuse, now to infidelity.
I am far from feeling 'normal'
fBS/fWS(me):52 Mad-hattered after DD (2008)
XWS:55 Serial Cheater, Diagnosed NPD
DD(22) DS(19)
XWS cheated the entire M spanning 19 years
Discovered D-Days 2006,2008,2012, False R 2014
Separated 9/2019; Divorced 8/2024
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