After the incidence, where CL pointed out that I had added few more details to the particular day event .. I was surprised.. I have almost discussed everything over and over again
But adding more details scared the hell out of me..
I have been putting off writing it down.. Even though it was very very uncomfortable for me to share the details with CL.. I knew it was needed for his healing .. Somehow I could separate myself from actually feeling the sadness ..
I have discussed the same things with 2 ICs and still I couldnít just put it down on the paper..
Last couple of days have been very unsettling for me and I realized I had a reached a place where I HAD to write it down..
I did.. today .. din take long Ö 2 Ė 3 hrs .. I havenít noted down my feelings or what was happening around me ..
I just wrote down the dates.. what I said.. what the other person said and details of what happened .. Maybe I will revisit it later and add about my feelings.. I donít know
But I feel so exhausted .. its not as if I am going through these things for the first time .. and still I am feeling so sad and cant stop crying.. so damn depressed
I am sorry CL