So this is. I thought I'd feel worse but I actually don't. It's been a down week though as I recall everything leading up to the discovery.
So today was the day that changed my life forever. The bomb fell and I have yet to fully recover. Not sure if I should celebrate the year as in, it is in the past... or perhaps look at it as the death of pain & suffering? Not sure.
One thing is for sure, it's been a year. For the last year my heart has been destroyed, broken, hurting, and it is slowly getting back to what it was before, but with some major scars.
She still doesn't say "I love you", but has made the right attempts to go through with the R.
So here we go with yr 2. For the moment I see my wife and I see a woman that has hurt me beyond belief. I think of my friend (OM) and I think of a failed person with zero morals and convictions even though he displayed the opposite to the world. I see myself and my self esteem is getting better, but still not there.
Anyway, just thought I'd share this. Thank you all for your kind words and support. If we were in a group together, I'd hug you all.
[This message edited by 2married2quit at 8:10 AM, June 6th (Thursday)]